The Wonderful Thing About Tigger

My son has memorized the dialogue of many movies. Star Wars, Indiana Jones, Jurassic Park, the old Pink Panther movies with Peter Sellers, various Scooby Doo adventures, Winnie the Pooh, and numerous other Disney films. Over the years I’ve often wondered if this ability to memorize movie dialogue crosses over into other areas of his memory. And it does, a bit. While it’s true that he can spell any word he’s ever read, and has an uncanny ability to remember dates and places of historical events, his memory for his own daily life generally isn’t as dependable.

On a recent trip to the grocery store, I was curious if Nigel remembered how traumatic it was for him to be in them when he was younger, how his sensory issues were so extreme that all the noises of the grocery store were agonizing to him and he would scream and writhe on the floor. He did not remember a thing. It was as if his mind had mercifully blocked the painful memories. I thought perhaps he didn’t remember because the majority of those incidents occurred when he was mostly non-verbal, aside from his cries of “Go! Go!” mixed in with his screams.

Part of me was disappointed because I thought that his memories would be valuable for several reasons. For one, I think it would buoy his self-esteem to see how far he’s come. Also, it would be fascinating if he could shed some light on what made things so hard for him, how he felt, and what he was thinking. Of course, the answers to those questions are obvious (The sounds hurt his ears! He felt tortured! What was he thinking? That he needed to get out of there!), but I just know that there’s so much to be learned from him, from his experiences. And so I figured that if he couldn’t remember the difficult parts of his non-verbal days, he couldn’t remember the good parts either.

Enter Tigger. Tigger is pretty celebrated around here. I’ve mentioned before how Nigel’s stuffed Tigger (bought at Disneyland during my pregnancy) prompted him to write the first little note he’d ever written. The Tigger and Winnie the Pooh stories and videos have also taught Nigel about friendship. And Tigger is responsible for enabling Nigel to do the first imaginative thing he’d ever done. Nigel used to like eating frozen corn niblets. He wouldn’t eat them cooked, only frozen. I would pour them in a little bowl and he would eat them with his fingers. One night when he was four years old, I poured some in bowl and put it on the kitchen table for him to eat. While I prepared some toast for Aidan, Nigel got out of his chair and ran out of the kitchen. He came back a moment later with Tigger. He gently put Tigger’s face in the bowl of frozen corn niblets and said, “Eat” in his little voice, his voice that was actually forming a word, stoic even from the beginning. I was beside myself with joy.

Fast forward ten years. Nigel, now fourteen, still loves Tigger and sleeps with him on his bed. He came to me a couple of nights ago and told me that he wanted to feed Tigger some corn again, like he did when he was little. My spine tingled. “You remember that?” I asked incredulously. He confirmed that he did. He said that he remembered how he felt and what he thought back then, that it made him happy to feed Tigger, and that he believed that he was really eating the corn. He said that having Tigger around all these years helps him to remember something from so long ago.

“Maybe Tigger has a magical quality because he was a gift of love,” Nigel said. I told him that he was probably right. And then he said, “Love reveals its capabilities in unexpected ways.”

I had to turn away, not wanting him to see my eyes welling with tears. “Yes, Nigel, it certainly does.” And I realized that what he said might have been a line memorized from a movie. But so what if it was? He chose the perfect time to say it. And it was beautiful.

21 thoughts on “The Wonderful Thing About Tigger

  1. Tera

    Oh my gosh, that is beautiful. Your son certainly has a way with words. Bet you couldn’t have believed that 10 years ago.

  2. Paulene Angela

    Delighted to read your story, thanks for sharing it. My son Maximilion will be touching 16 years in May. Despite our efforts to ween him away from Tigger and co. by introducing other interests, hence giving more variety, which up to a point has worked. He ocassionally reverts back to old videos of Pooh and Tigger and laughs away. May be they represent unconditional love, fun and stability, friends that he can relate with, as they never change and are readable.

  3. goodfountain

    That is really special. And I agree, who cares if it’s from a movie – it was used appropriately and said with meaning.

    By the way, Charlotte loves to eat frozen vegetables – corn and peas, esp. But she’ll also eat lots of frozen foods that aren’t vegetables (like waffles). I guess it’s a sensory-seeking thing.

  4. Fearless Females

    I can so relate to this story (as I can with a lot of them you tell) Meghan loves the whole team of Pooh stuffed animals and hugs and plays with them — but never once played with a doll.. And, of course, she loves the videos!! I’m glad these characters do so much and are a part of their life…

  5. Sheri

    Thank you for sharing that. I amazed at what Brenden does remember and what he doesn’t…sometimes I think it’s like childbirth..we don’t remember it all for some sort of self-preservation.

  6. Michelle S

    Nigel and Daniel sound quite similar. I would love to see them together some day!! Daniel still sleeps with Fantasia Mickey Mouse every night. It’s amazing

  7. Nicki

    Nigel sounds like he is wise beyond his years! Even if he is quoting from movies… it sounds like he understands where using the quotes would be the perfect thing to say!

  8. Rhemashope

    “Love reveals its capabilities in unexpected ways.” Oh, that rings SO true in my house right about now! Love it!

    Prayed for you and Aidan today. How did it go?

  9. Kat

    Oh wow, just beautiful. What a great kid. Its moments like these that just melt my heart.

    Movie Boy also used to hate the grocery, but now is fine. Your post was a nice reminder of how far he has come, how far they all can come. Thanks.

  10. pixiemama

    You know, we all steal language, or phrases wouldn’t become so wildly popular (like, what’s up with that?) “Love reveals its capabilities in unexpected ways” is perhaps one of the most beautiful sentences I have ever heard. It was certainly worth repeating.

    I have another one for you:
    “You complete me.”

    Because you do. Seeing your boys, Tanya, it helps. It really helps.

    Thank you.

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